Friday, December 12, 2003
today feelin better liaoz...took out earstud liaoz...haiz me wanna jian fei la...no effect leh...i muz ping ming liaoz...this time go chalet although quite bu shuang somebody but some ppl i really got to noe em' better...chong hui is the one i hang out with most of the time...she very cute loh...very wen rou oso...zi wei...lotsa ming yan...so funny when the 2 of us debate...lyndy...a very nice person to be with...since we 2 going to same class next year...got more chance to noe her better...jin ru n michelle mmm nv tok much la but jin ru's eyelashes super long...so xian mu...our dance's famous chio bu...monissa...hair you chang you zhi...so nice...face bai li tou hong...slim slim wear halter neck so chio...then hoh she wear jacket nv tie hair cycle oso nv sweat...she very cute....other dance members all oso very nice...found other xie zhi lovers...so happy....
to luan~thx 4 being there when i angry...realli fa xian mei you ni bu xing...u r juz as important as xi jie, xie zhi, ren fu n yayu...
to jen~go pierce la...i oso wanna pierce somemore but muz wait 4 this pair stablise 1st
i wanna learn to fight...if not everytime oso luan luan da...
~~every moment when i am happy i'll think of ur smile, every moment when i look at the sea i think of ur eyes, every moment when i fall i think of ur determination, every moment when i cry i wanna cry in ur arms, every moment i am awake i tok about u, every moment i'm asleep i think about u...n yet...u dun even noe i exist...but still...i want to lean onto u...even if i fall...i fall knowing it is a fall meant to let me get closer to loving u better...
selian shen jing bing le...but...it is the truth...wei le someone who dun even noe me...i'm willing to suffer all the pain...go through all the ordeals...do everything i can...juz b'cuz...
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 10:18 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2003
i back from chalet liaoz...1st day got 15 ppl slp one room...wah seh...i never even slp 4 one minute...i got close eyes la...but hoh nv slp...then xiying pull me wake up ask me to see toilet 4 her cuz she scared...siao one...then we go beach at 6 am...then that xiying hoh...say my bowling score lower then hers...then laugh laugh laugh...siao ah...lower big deal ah?! then say wanna go back into room eat breakfast...then walk almost reach liaoz then say wanna go cheers buy pizza bar...idiot...then i say dun wan then she sa jiao...then go er....er....er....wle...almost wanna punch her...then go n design wat stupid game lose liaoz muz be thrown into water...then she is one of the coordinator no need to play...wle not as if she dun noe i can't swim ritez...wan me 2 die izzit?!
then dunno wat the idiot hoh go home liaoz typing this entry that time oso kana scolded b'cuz??? b'cuz my maid spoilt my picture...idiot...
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 9:44 PM
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
today i surfing net 4 zhou chuan xiong's 'wo zai shen bian' mtv (cuz got ming dao acting inside)...cannot find the full version lehz...plz help...but hoh i got watch a bit la...sad sad leh...something like the girl sitting outside his house...then he(ming dao la...not xiao gang) open the door then she muo ming qi miao one...juz ran inside n sit in the toilet...i think she quarrel with her bf or wat...then i think she sick or something la...he help her is either wipe away the sweat or put water or wat...then she like held onto him....almost kiss liaoz but suddenly she push him away...then got one part she lying on his lap then he scream scream scream oso dunno 4 wat...but that part the lyrics is 'wo dui ni de wen rou jing de qi kao yan' something liddat la....sad leh...if is ren fu act one sure got better effect...then hoh the girl hoh is the R&B the xiao qiao lehz...quite kawai
~i dun want u to say 'sorry' i'd rather u say 'i love u'...never say 'gdbye'...i'd rather u say 'i hate u'...because i rather be hated by you then to see u leave...
**4 luan**(oso no need to specify la since only u cum here hoh)
i think that u are able to think better when we together is not b'cuz i more clear-minded is b'cuz i watch more 'ou xiang ju'...n i've seen more horrible things compared to wat u've experience...
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 2:20 PM
Monday, December 08, 2003
ok today go luan'z blog see liaoz...true...i wan the old him back too...but i believe he will one day realise one....he a bit like wang xing...ku ku de shou hou...end up oso...haiz...but nvm muz believe in oneself then can succeed...WE ARE THE BEST... i really hoh believe in yayu's philosophy...everything only can rely on oneself...rely on others too much end up if that person leave u u'll feel more sad....
~my heart once broke 4 u...now that i have healed it...it has became so hard that it can no longer feel...b'cuz i healed it in pain n sorrow...now my heart is gone replaced only with confidence n determination...b'cuz i believe one day I'LL BE THE BEST n u can only stand in one corner n cry...hahaha....
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