Saturday, February 12, 2005
today i went for a 2.4 JOG with jenn n sharon ( i admit la i jogged darn slow throughout) den went gym...ok...it was fun...the exercise was fun but sharon n jenn are better than fun...realli missed the times we spent together...but sorry galz..as much as i wish to...i can't run with u galz from next wk onwards...cuz got dance...next week is a real workout week...monday PE...tues go kallang rehearse for SYF...thurs fri n sat got dance...ooo...(dead oledi) n i'm goin to miss booster session cuz got dance...oh well...everyone is like omg gary..den i went like omg i'm goin to miss cherie...haiz...ok fine..i got weird taste...den jenn sharon xiangwang wenfeng luan lyn xiying came to me house...didn't do much la...jux eat n tok..play truth or dare...wle force me to admit...but ok la since is an issue that passed...but but...aiyoh...den ask me xiangwang n wenfeng hu shuai-er....though the answer is OBVIOUS budden dun wanna hurt ppl ma...but i still said la haha...but i tink wenfeng shuai-er from neck n above xiangwang shuai-er from neck n below...call me gross but itz true...
to jenn n sharon: love u galz man...so much...huggz...hehex...if can find time we can go for a course together la...but we want diff things so very hard...
to lyn: the rose is nice (hehex i buy one of course nice)...thx fer comin
to everyone hu came: thx peeps..i enjoyed n i'm sure u peeps did too...
to the one deep in my heart n ady: i realise i can't fall in love anymore...no matter how hard i try...no matter how many excuses i give...my heart jux won't love another person other than you...i jux hope that time will wash away all of these...n i will return to hu i realli was...although loving you was never easy...but i thank u for making me realise there's a different me...n tat at times i am realli not the flickle minded me...
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 8:47 PM
Friday, February 11, 2005
today nth much happened...during dance sorta kana 'scolded'...den mrs Lee SL said something quite meaningful 在有限的范围内发挥无限的力量 ok i liked it...den today i was pondering over something during english lesson (ya ya i noe hav to pay attention)...no la i was pondering when she mark attendence for homework...i was thinkin...everytime i like someone...starting is always painful...cuz like not reciprocated ma...but later...his 幸福 becomes more impt that my own happiness lo...i c him happy i oso happy i see him sad i oso sad...so a bit like idiot la ..budden...cannot help...den hor...i will like hope i can help him get his happiness lo...i admit i will get jealous..i mean aiyo selian is that kind super easy jealous one...but ...i noe which is more impt to me lo...my own jealousy vs the one i like or love...of cuz is the guy more impt rite...
yesterday was tokin to lyn on da phone...den ok la most of the time is i tok crap la...thx arh dear for listening 4 so long...den ok lo...i admit we both need that kinda attention...but selian...act tough la hor...den it dawn onto me that...although i might love a certain guy a lot...but he might love another girl more than i love him lo...n...as long as he is happy..i'm ok...i mean k la say not sad is bluff one la...budden...n i admit oso la..i get jealous i am petty n truthfully i am selfish...but when it comes to the one i love...i guess...i'm jux not me anymore when it comes to this kinda thing...i'm no longer the IPW leader hu say 1 means 1 say 2 means 2...i'm not the lao gong hu is stable n there...not the jie or ma hu is like so tough...actualli i b'cum nobody...weak...defenseless...confused...but b'cuz i love u so i'm willing to keep all these away...
to luan : u may say love is only 苦 when we look at it in the pess way..or life isn't as diff. as it seems...or we dun nid guys to survive (ya la we only nid sun air water food)...but truthfully...hu dun wanna feel loved?
to lyn: i may not offer u the love n concern that u wan...but this is the most i can do as a fren...n u noe wat...though this doesn't sound too gd...i think i understand ( i THINK)
to eunice: lao puo thx fer being there for me...
to vernus: sorry for spelling her name wrongly....n this gal is a gd source of motivation...
to xiang wang gor: thx fer being there (no nid to type too much since i tink he wun read)
to all my gors: though 认了 quite useless budden u guys still rawk n i still luv u guys
to all my lao puos : i realli luv u galz (as fren)
to tat special someone n ady: 我对你的爱也许看似虚空，但其实比浩瀚无尽的海还深。。。也许我不能在你身边，但我打从心底希望你幸福。。。这比什么都重要。。。我明白你的爱不属于我， 而是属于一个很重要的女生。。。我们的故事不会有公主与王子般的结局。。。但是我希望你和你的她会有比一切还坚决的爱情。。。因为。。。我爱你。。。
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 7:41 PM
Thursday, February 10, 2005
went to watch i do i do today...k larh not bad lo...is that kind unreiquited love at first but still end up gettin married...den say wat as long as she happy i'm willing to stand by her kinda thing...arh wat ever the usual crap la...but ok lo...farni enough...den sorta miss my di la...so go n read the previous fanfics that i read b4 n CONFIRM his girlfren NV DIE...di is great..i love his eyes lo...his eyes may not be beautiful...but they have the flame...n i like that...den new yr only collected $76 which is realli...dengz...cuz quite a number of ppl nv come....i think is cuz they think it is to their lost...cuz our side got lotsa kids...den didn't get to see my shuai cousin...well...nvm...but ok la a bit disappointed lo...wait one yr liaoz you mei you..den i realise my gal cousin change a lot lo..chio sia...den she say got ppl jio her budden not her type...den she ask my mom got restrict me get bf a not...den my mom say no...which is true...cuz my cousin's mom dun let her get bf i tink...but plx la...even do it behind ur bac u oso dunno rite...better be like me n my mom...tok it out...she dun forbid me lo...aiya can't get one anyway so nvm...den my cousin ask if i got bf...y is everyone askin me the same ques...my cousin n my ex class mates...come on la..do i look like as if i have...they say is cuz i dress nicer...ok fine...actualli at first when i started that pink-is-nice habit n start buying skirts my parents oso tot i got bf..ok lo..tink for all u wan...cuz i dun hav...come on la look at ur own daughter man...truthfully...i dun deny the fact that guys n i get along...but get along n get together are totally diff. things...they like me as a sister as a brother...but it jux doesn't work that way..itz ok with me lo...cuz no matter is guys or galz i'm nv their priority...i nv enjoyed the luxury of being someone's best fren...cuz so n so may appear to be on very very gd terms with me budden when another so n so comes along i'm always left aside...n so n so still dare to ask y i so quiet...come on lo...m i ever quiet when i'm with xiying n muihiang...NO...(unless i realli depress) even so i oso not quiet one...i'll scold...noe y...cuz they dun ignore me n indulge in their own conversation n leave me to rot...so come on...stop saying i'm ur best or even gd fren when u dun even bother bout how i feel...n come on la...i wun blame u for not sayin i'm ur gd fren lo...i'm use to it le...even u say le i oso noe u lyin so watz the point?...
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 7:04 PM
Monday, February 07, 2005 SCREAMZ~~~so darn angry lorh...a lot of ppl say my fanfic not bad is jux that i make di too perfect...u wanna noe y?? cuz all the fanfic his gal has to die la...leave him la n blah blah blah...today i went to the fanfic website...long time nv go le...den saw a fanfic with di as main character...k la quite rare...den hor...FINE his gal fren DIED as USUAL...humph...these ppl got prob izzit?? sadist...come on lo...if dun like di i can understand...but alot of these writers like di one lorh...den y still liddat?? can't bear to see another women take him...fine u may say all these fanfics are fake..but jux think...if di realli saw them...he will be sad lo...idiots...
today is an ok day...a bit boring but i pulled through...n noe wat...i admit...i am a pretender...i am so darn fake...i am no longer the selian i hold true to...guys? love? wat ever...dun nid le ok...(k la i lying is need one lo)...idiots...morons...blah blah blah
k la found a not very nice old song by energy...but this time i listen like got new feelings...lik di urging me to work hard...i will...still gotta top Anderson...go do work le...
how are you now 过得好不好看到你出现就安心了不少
或许经过了些时间我们友情会更坚牢
记得吗那年的夏天分享的喜悦在我们眉间
汗水和泪水终于溶成了钢和铁
终于踏上了棱线的尖端两边都可以让人跌下山崖
不要害怕错过再来但一定要过得更精采
你要继续前进
我们都站在正义那一边
同一个世界不同的视野
但希望我们能在迈上成功路上遇见
我们都站在正义那一边
我们一定会挺你到永远
只要你还在坚持追求梦想那个光点
终于踏上了棱线的尖端两边都可以让人跌下山崖
不要害怕错过再来但一定要过得更精采
你要继续前进
我们都站在正义那一边
同一个世界不同的视野
但希望我们能在迈上成功路上遇见
我们都站在正义那一边
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 8:19 PM
Sunday, February 06, 2005 today goin to write super long..but my frenz plz read...no matter how many days it might take u....cuz this means a lot to me.... n change to UNICODE
the love of my life...
wellz itz been sometime since i blogged...budden everytime i blog like only a few ppl read lehx...haiz...k la k la...yesterday went k box den went find clothes with xiying...she buy i look...well she gd lorh...easy to buy...me hor...even nice oso most prob cannot wear one...we went k box tat time hor...i sang the song 永远不说再见 den hor the mtv hor...(ok la u all noe i goin to tok bout hu liaoz rite) den my di hor...wle so darn shuai lorh...his eyes inside got sparkle one lo...ok la is tears larh ... den hor i was like tellin xiying bout it den when she look at the screen...he closed his eyes!! diaoz...budden ok larh...he close eyes still look darn sentimental...
ahhhh di rox man...ok lor...not exactly very da shuai larh (like some ppl say kunda) not as muscular as niunai...er...ok la not as farni as shuwei...cuz shuwei realli farni one...budden no choice i still love him a lot...cuz his voice..woah...den he look so cool but is so sentimental..but hor..sentimental n moaning over nth is differant ok! tat look in his eyes...oh man...*melts...last time when i liked 5566 more than energy i still nv giv up on di...budden...sorta forget him at times *slam my head against the wall...den i heard the "missing you" wle his voice...i jux sat in front of the comp (cuz got that kinda 试听)...n thought bout di...haiz...den next day immediately get money n go buy his album...n u noe wat...it was around this time of the year...cuz last yr new yr is jan...den i get the money liaoz..a week or 2 den i heard the song...so is around this time...woah time realli flies...but i still love that song...i love his voice...n i love him...
actualli quite stupid la...when i first saw energy..i liked toro...cuz his hair so cute lo...den his eyes bigbig very nice...den i noticed niunai oso....cuz he is like the leader ma...den i got hear di's name la...budden didn't hav a deep impact on me...den i was like toro toro toro...until i heard 第二次爱上你 on radio...n den dunno is fate or wat...everytime i on the radio confirm is that song playin one...wen i 1st heard di's voice i didn't it's him lor...den later i tink is the DJ say or something i knew...woah den i was like woah i like this voice eh...den i saw their more than words mtv...den di so cool lo...den saw some interview...den i notice tat guy that sits aside n every word he says makes so much sense (tat time nv like him so much yet...lik toro more...can u imagine ...toro??)...den i bought energy's 2nd album...den i heard 多爱我一天...den ok lo...i was more impress with his voice...den reali noticed di liaoz...but that time i still call him ahdi...den E3...tat was the time i realli liked di alot...cuz of the song 只有我 it's my 2nd fav song of energy's ...but this song means alot...cuz it's sad is one thing...di's voice is terrific is one thing...the thing is this song is both di n mine fav song on E3...n for the same reason somemore...cuz is darn sentimental...den i craze over westside story 西街少年...but still returned to energy...cuz heard energy4ever...den i heard missing you...i realli wanna kill myself for forgetting di...den i love him more n more as the days goes by..
since tat time till now oledi one yr le...in between i liked many many other male artist...but di has nv left my heart...n although as vernus says di is not shuai n i dun even noe him n he didn't even noe me but...hu cares...i love him..so wat?? the spark in his eyes when he sings...it is his passion...the flame that burnts in eternity...the flame that only one other person can match...(at least got 90% la)...di rox my world
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