the number of days away from mock...a levels...and freedom... onli hoping that the freedom comes with happiness... how am i suppose to reach the goal i set for mock in 4 days?!
i'm lost in a sea of words and numbers where i do not know where to go i do not fear to step out but i need to know where and what to step on literature should b ok...not exceptionally ok but i'm still quite fine with it.. GP is pretty far but i'm nt too worried econs is...i duno... history is... maths...is...is...whatever...
if i could i would realli like to pick myself up and give myself a few slaps to wake me up i'm like encaved in escapism...my brain is like...a computer that simply refuses to be switched on if o levels was a deciding point of life...a levels might just kill me i dun want to...but it's a tough fight
like i said b4 this is a test of stamina but i have to rely on my sprint to win it.... i remember someone told me this when i was in pri sch "in the last lap of the race it is themind over the body" i guess the only thing i can rely on now is mental strength... i have to put the determination i have in other aspects of my life into studies now... it is no longer about just mugging...struggling...trying to pull through it is not a fight against anyone or everyone it is a battle within the one and only person i have to defeat... is myself just like i once wrote in one of the songs i composed called 我的Devil's show there's this line 恶魔的最后一战不与正气对打 他选择和自己展开一场最后屠杀 exactly what i have to do now...kill the negative lazy voice from within
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
i feel like blogging again despite the fact that i just blogged like yesterday...duno...maybe i'm seriously so stressed up although i dun really feel it...my emotions are too gd at concealing themselves that even i myself cannot really decipher(did i get the spelling rite?) them...
i gt back history today...improved...but nt gd enough...i felt like crying there n den...but i didn't...not bcuz of anything but just that i look at the paper n the sheer amt of wrong information i put into my essays...thx mr loh for givin me an ok grade despite this...i feel sad cuz i realli studied for history...if i studied at all..it's history...my cca teacher asked me about my grade today...how am i suppose to answer her...during the last parent teacher meeting she was saying "you are the only person in apts in the whole cl...and you are the president" ...well...realli hope next yr my name will be up when they announce the results...if anything i now start to feel the strong desire to get into my desired course which is now theatre studies...i duno if i'll change my mind...but for now...it's theatre studies....
i had a dream today morning (defined as 1am and on)...if only dreams were reality...but well u can onli say that for dreams...wouldn't wish the same for nightmares which i had for monday n tues morning...finalli had a pretty decent dream today morning...two nice dreams...simple...but realli nice...
shall wake up from dream n back to reality....reality check...today is 5days to mock exams...15 days to farewell..33days to a levels...61days to freedom...(define as 26th november is last day)...
yesterday u asked me something i tot you knew~all about u.mcfly 你比我清楚还要我说明白~背叛.曹格
不用陪我走到最后，我承担不起你的承诺 - 说你爱我 written by hebe 我陪你走到最后。。。你紧紧地抱住我说你不需要承诺 - 白色风车 written by jay
i nid more gp compre n essay practise...more econs essay practise..more lit essay practise...more history revision n practise...maths....
today is so long-winded...nt like anyone reads this
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 9:04 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
all about you by mcfly...here's part of the lyrics that i like
Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew. So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you' Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too, Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.Dancing on the kitchen tiles, Yes you make my life worthwhile, So I told you with a smile...It's all about you
quite nice...esp 小煜's harmony at second part of the song... he's a gd singer...n he's 帅！！！ seriously...
5 more wks to a levels.... glorify the muggers.... hold on baby~ 8 more wks...around there and we will be FREE.... so... hold on for the last lap.... in this competition for stamina i have to rely on my sprint to win the race ironic but true quote xingying "product of anderson sec" but i'm sure we can do it...
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 11:34 PM
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