Saturday, December 11, 2004
update blog b4 i go out with my dear dear...i juz finish reading a fanfic...in 1 hr...not a very touching fanfic...a bit drag...but gort ahdi la...so cannot conplain...
someone reminded me of something i nv wanted to be reminded of...though i laughed it off but deep down the scar still hurts...not for wat i was reminded of...but wat it reminded me of...(complicated hor)...i went somewhere...saw something...den realise...though i tried so hard to let go...my heart decided for itself that it didn't want to let go...it hurts...it realli did...i didn't break down...b'cuz the pain repeated itself so many times in the past that i'm used to it...i will nv break down...not that i can find anyone to break onto...
i stretched out my hands and seeked for help...a hand reached out and pulled me away from pain...but little did i noe...this was the start of worst pain...pain that hurt right from the bottom of my heart...a pain the resides in my tears n heart n the soul it tore apart....
to jie (sharon): hehex...u didn't noe i gort another jie mehx...is mui hiang nehx...hmm...but i love u still the same...if not more...cuz u were always there for me...n i love ur smile (and blur-ness) that nv fails to brighten my day...
to luan: ya larh...maybe i shld stop writing for a while...n maybe when i recover my writing abilities den write again...
to lyn: i'm so happy seeing u happy again...i miss u like dunno wat...but after i finish writing this den goin out with u le la...so ok...hehex
to everyone: hey peeps...thx fer comin to my blog wor...*hugx 4 gals* *slap on the back for guys*
~i swear ..by the moon and the stars in the sky.. i'll be there.. i swear ..like the shadow that's by your side ..i'll be there ..for better or worse ..til death do us part ..i'll love you with every beat of my heart ..i swear ~
>>added at nite...
jux watch the s'pore idol finals again...the more i watch the more i am certain that taufik is the best choice for s'pore idol...okok i dun say le...if not kana hit...juz now went out with dear...all the way we were like lookin out for shuai ge...haha...den we tok photo...lyn is so chio lor...me so zi bei...me goin east coast tomolo with family to celebrate my sis's b'day...den dad say bringin me shoppin...woooohooo....shoppin rox...i desperately need retail therapy...me goin bonkers already...especially since... ... nvm...me miss all of u so...TAG TAG TAG
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 10:33 AM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
today went to dance...yongz injured herself...ok...she say muz pray for her larh...so everyone pray lorh hor...den muahaha found new source of entertainment...(winks to lyn)...read fanfics...woah super sweet arh...sweet until will die arh..gort one guy (ok la ok la is ahdi) ...he looked for a gal for 5 yrs...wen they finalli patched he asked for wat she owed him ...so she ask wat he wan...he said she owed him 1 kiss everyday so altogether owe 1825 kisses...den she say dun wan...so he say nvm...YOU dun nid to kiss me 1825 times...ME can kiss YOU 1825 times...muahaha...so cute...the last sentence is the one i liked the most "the one n only boy i loved when i was still a girl returned for me as a man.."...wah liaoz...so tao zui...(floats away~~~)....ok bac to reality..i bought a 'lian' today...n i engraved the words ahdi...in chinese...though dun look very nice...but i realli like it a lot...cuz gort my bao bei ahdi...wah lao eh...say liaoz i feel like fallin in love with him all over again..haha..nort much inspiration fer my fanfic...suggestions ppl suggestions
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 5:51 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2004 ok finalli i decided to blog again...return from chalet on sunday...yesterday i was too tired to blog so...wellz...the chalet quite typical larh...play cards play cards play cards...gort go n cycle la...thatz bout all...oh ya saw a david rollar blading de poster in mac...n if u hav doubts bout it...it is REALLI DAVID...he said it in his blog...wellz...saw the final episode of michael's dance (mi jia le zhi wu)...lame ending...but at least i got to see di...my dad says i onli got eyes for di...where gort lorh...i still got milk n david marh...though i like di betta larh...auntie bringing me shopping next week...woah...i wanna buy that funky animal notebook...n some nice nice pens i saw...den buy clothes lorh...hehex...finalli can buy clothes le..happy...in my last entry i say i dun like anyone now...haiz...so life a bit sianz larh...but den oso gd lorh...more carefree...budden...like jing shen no ji tuo....haiz haiz haiz...sometime feelin a bit down...feel like tellin di...wanna lie on his shoulder blah n blah...lame rite...he dun even noe my existance lorh...i noe larh i got lotsa frenz ..lao puoz...jie...gorz...budden...itz that kinda...i oso dunno how to say the feelin lehx...like missing part of my life liddat...though i no longer in search of my prince charming...but no matter wat me still need that kinda support one lorh...aiyah dunno wat i sayin larh...crappin...
~am i just seeing wat i want to see...or is it true could u realli be...someone to have n hold...with all my heart n soul...i need to noe b4 i fall in luv~
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