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Saturday, June 05, 2004
chong, eu, luan, yi, lyndy, yong, qi, qiao, pat, sharon jie, bianz gor, panda gor, kenny (u finish ipw then i love u), xiao di, and all my other lao puo...gors ...jie...n frenz...dui bu qi...
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dui bu qi... wo hai shi ai ni men de...only that...sometimes..somethings...juz cannot be help...
Chapter 44 *do u still…*
At ahdi’s house
Xiezhi: woah…finalli settle le (ya lor… from chap 3 plan until now…tired sia)
Ella: ya…
Hebe: eh… i…
Jian hua: ?
Ahdi: hahahahaha
Jie er: wat izzit?
Renfu: hebe n I are officially couple again
Selina: huh? Weren’t u guys a couple long ago?
Milk: ya lor (giggles)
Ella: finalli
Xiezhi: aiyoh so lag
Hebe: eh…dun liddat ma
Renfu: ya lor… u n ella leh
Xiezhi: we not official meh?
Ella: ya lor?
Ahdi: (clears his troat) me n jie er are officially couple (looks dead serious)
All: WE NOE!!!
Jian hua: haiz… still left me leh…
Selina: eh milk… should i?
Milk: yeah
Ahdi: yarh u should
Selina: how u noe?
Jie er: he is psychic
Selina: ahdi u are freaky u noe…ppl secret oso cannot hide
Jian hua: wat izzit?
Milk: well there’s this girl that me n Selina noe.. n she likes u like hell…so er…we were thinking maybe u wanna giv it a try…
Renfu: XIANG QING
Jian hua: hahaha…I dun believe in arranged love..but no harm… I free anyway…
Selina: ok I arrange 4 u 2 to meet…
Milk: one more thing
All: wat
Ahdi: milk I noe I noe…
Milk: u noe then still?
Ahdi: (clears his troat) jie er… will u marry me?
Jie er: (rolls her eyes) look at ur 4th finger
Ahdi: but that one not official…
Jie er: well wat can I do… I have ur child you mei you
Ahdi: if dun hav then u dun wan marry me arh?
Jie er: u idiot la… when I thought u die I still marry u… now u alive how can I let u go?
Ahdi: true hoh…
Renfu: somemore someone say will ai dao mou nian mou yue mou yi tian
Hebe: n someone ask if will love till the day he die
Renfu: then someone reply “ much longer than that”
All (except jie er n ahdi): woah…
Ahdi: ok we are officially married… I’ll arrange the wedding…fine with u dear?
Jie er: sure…
RINGRING
Selina: hello…ya…now? Ok lo (hangs up phone) I goin out
Milk: i…
Selina: shu wei
Milk: ok…
At park
Shuwei: hi Selina
Selina: hi..
Shuwei: I cut it short… u noe I dun like to say too much
Selina: yeah?
Shuwei: I’m leaving for Russia
Selina: business?
Shuwei: yeah…I juz wanna ask u… are u xing fu?
Selina: (thinks of milk’s bunny smile) yes I am
Shuwei: gd…. Can gimme one last hug b4 I go?
Selina: (hug without replying)
At ahdi’s house
Selina: I’m bac
Milk: U LIKE HIM THEN GO BAC TO HIM
Selina: wat?
Milk: u hugged him
Selina: u followed me?!?!
Milk: so? U hugged him… u like him then go bac to him
Selina: maybe I should… maybe I should follow shuwei to Russia n leave u forever…
Milk: so u finalli admit
Ahdi: guys quit it
Selina: I only hugged shuwei cuz he leaving n it’s a friendly hug…u oso hug jie er b4 I oso nv suspect u…
Milk: cuz…cuz
Selina: cuz wat? Cuz u dun trust me!!! (runs into her room)
Milk: arh…
Ahdi: okok… juz go comfort her…
Milk: how?
Ahdi: hmm… a hello kitty always works…
Milk: but this time
Ahdi: giv her a milk hug then
Milk: orh…I try lo…
In Selina room (she lyin on her bed)
Selina: idiot… so long le still cannot believe me…
KNOCK KNOCK
Milk: Selina… can I come in
Selina: go away
Milk: (went in anyway) u dun angry le la
Selina: bleah
Milk: eh …dun liddat la
Selina: humph (turn around bac facin him)
Milk: (hug her from behind) er….
Selina: bleah
Milk: er…
Selina: (softly n weakly) milk
Milk POV: y she speak lik e very sad liddat?
Milk: (softly) yes dear?
Selina: i…i…
Milk felt her body shivering slightly n heard her sobbing
Milk: eh…dear….dear (crawl on top of her n look at her) ah… dun cry… it’s all my fault… dun cry le.. sorry sorry…
Selina: (looks up at milk) milk…i…
Milk: okok dun say le… I believe u
Selina: I love u
Milk: ….
She pulled him close for a kiss n laid her head onto his shoulder… (now he lying beside her she facing him)
Milk: bao bei… dui bu qi
Selina: it doesn’t matter
Milk: it does
Selina: milk… do u still love me?
Milk: yes…
Selina held him tighter n fell into a deep slumber
In ahdi’s room
Jie er: will the 2 of em be ok?
Ahdi: they ok le
Jie er: aiyoh psychic
Ahdi: so (walk over n place his hand over jie er’s tummy) how’s my baby?
Jie er: I dun think we’re ready for this
Ahdi: hmm? Dun worry… I’ll be a gd father
Jie er: I noe u will… but i….
Ahdi: dun worry ok? No matter wat happens u have me
The next day at culture hotel
Selina: ok jian hua she’ll be here any minute
Jian hua: nvm la…
Milk: ya jian hua can charm anyone
Selina: except me
Jian hua: huh? Y?
Selina: I’m charmed by milk (holding up her glass of milk)
Milk: my honour
Jian hua: shivers…
Selina: oh…hey jolin.. here here
Jolin: hi Selina… I miss u…
Selina: me too… oh ya…this is my boyfren milk…
Jolin: hi…haha
Milk: hmm?
Selina: bunny rite?
Jolin: yar
Selina: ok (ignoring milk’s stare) this is jian hua
Jian hua: hi… nice to meet u
Jolin: hi
Jian hua POV: wow… super charming… she’s cuter in person…the photo was cute… but now she looks mature with a bit of girlishness… oozing with charm
Jolin POV: wow wat a hunk… but….
Selina: jolin y u look guai guai de?
Jolin: er… jian hua…jian hua… where did I heard that name b4…hmm….ARGH
All: wat?!
Jolin: HUO JIAN HUA
jian hua: yeah?
Jolin: dun u remember? Xing wang and yin he?
Jian hua: that’s the musical I acted in… xing wang is me yin he is xinling..u are….
Jolin: aiyoh… I’m the one who acted as yin he b4 xinling replaced me
Jian hua: JOLIN TSAI YI LING
Jolin: yah
Selina: u guys noe each other…
Jolin: wle… huo xiao hua… u now so shuai
Jian hua: yah we noe each other… cai yi ling u so mei…
Jolin: thanks… but too bad I got bf le…
Selina: I thought u interested in jian hua
Jolin: when I saw his pic I thought he’s cute…which he is..but doesn’t mean I have to stead him
Jian hua: true… who’s ur boyfren…
Jolin: oh… I think u ppl got heard of him b4…
Jian hua: yeah try us…
Jolin: Zhang Shu Wei… he’s a red dragon… diao ba?
Selina: duh…
Jolin: eh red dragon very big leh
Selina: we noe that Zhang Shu wei… he’s…my ex…
Jolin: huh…he nv tell me b4
Milk: how u expect him to tell u.. n red dragon is nth
Selina: milk’s brother is golden dragon
Jolin: u mean… ur brother is Ady Hsiao?
Milk: yeah…
Jian hua: all too conincidental le ba
Jolin: I WANNA SEE ADY HSIAO…NOW!!!
Milk: y?
Jolin: he owe me an explaination…
This chap oso not bad 1188 words……but wat explaination Ady owe jolin…well next chap
at 9:52 PM
Chapter 43 *a mom?*
A month past since ahdi’s death…at milk’s apartment
Hebe: eh Selina u think this dress nice or not? (pointing to a white dress with small ribbon details)
Selina: okok lar… jie er wat u think?
Jie er: i… ok lor… watz the price…
Selina: $521….(stop and looks up to a tearing jie er)
Ella: jie…er…
Jie er: …
Milk: (puts his arm around her) jie er… ok le la…itz been a month le leh… surly ahdi dun wanna see u liddat…
Jie er: y….y did I force him to go…y didn’t I treasure him while I still could… ahdi… (could no longer control herself and sob uncontrollably buring her head into her hands)
Milk: jie er… i…(looks at Selina)
Selina: milk…we…all go out bah
After they left
Jie er: ahdi… y did u leave me alone here… I miss ur arms… I miss ur kiss… I miss ur eyes…I miss ur love…I miss…u…ahdi
Ahdi: jie er
Jie er: hmm? Ahdi?...di is that u?...
Milk: wat? Jie er u ok not?
Jie er: ya… I … er… (vomited)
Milk: arh…selina…ella…hebe…arhh…
At the doc
Milk: doc how’s my sis-in-law…?
Doc: congra…ur sis-in- law is pregnant…
Ella: huh?
Hebe: with hu?
Milk: jie er?
Jie er: ahdi…
All: HUH?!?!?!
Jie er: i… dunno… i… it can’t be…doc u sure?
Milk: wat…
Jie er: erm… 3 days after ahdi died…I was sleeping… in my dreams me n ahdi…erm…
Milk: crazy…
Doc: but itz juz a dream…
Jie er: thatz the only person… if u consider it…
Priest ma: it is possible…
All: priest!!!
Priest: yes jie er… in psychic theory it is possible to have two ppl do that kinda thing in a dream… even if he’s dead…perhaps…the love btw the 2 of u were so strong it exhausted his last bit of undead power to leave u something…
Doc: u wanna keep this child…
Jie er: I dunno…
Voice: keep it…
At the silver dragons meeting place
Uncle tan: since Ady Hsiao is dead n the only golden dragon Hsiao jun isn’t willing to take the leader’s position we shall elect a leader 4 ourselfs
Others: agree…
Uncle tan: so any suggestions?
1: well since tan is so responsible n experience y dun u be our leader
others: yes yes…
uncle tan: if u guys insist I guess I’ll have to…
voice: WAIT… WE OBJECT…
uncle tan: (turns towards the voices) kushiro…I noe u all along is help master hsiao one…but…hmm…shuwei…
at the doc
voice: keep it…
all: (turns around) AHDI!!!!
Jie er: ahdi
Ahdi: (walks up n put his arm around jie er) it’s my son… I noe it… keep it…
Jie er: u…I …how?
Ahdi: haiz.. itz a long story… we’ll talk bout it when we go bac…
At milk’s apartment
All (except jie er): spit it out
Ahdi: okok… ( holds jie er in his arms and takes a deep breath) when I was rushing towards selina’s concert a silver blue sports car ram into my car… but I was not really seriously injured… but my psychic power told me that someone wants my life… so I used a skill called “1000 sleep”… I faked death but I was sub conscious so I knew everything thatz happening around me…I knew I married jie er… jie er remember u heard me twice… thatz not ur hallucination… my heart was speaking to urs…that night 3 days from my “death”… itz in UR dream… but I was really there… in ur room…on ur bed… we really did that thing… only thing u dunno… I only choose to return now b’cuz one… I have to settle a dragon society dispute…two… I had to save my son… three… i….( looks into jie er’s eyes which has never left him ) cuz i…i… miss u… n everytime u cry… i… I feel the same pain in my heart…
Jie er: u…y u … did that to me? I mean u dun hav to do ma… i…at least let me noe that…er
Ahdi: cuz I really miss u…. so much that i….sorry I couldn’t control myself…sorry…
Jie er: ahdi… i…(looks at the gang)
All: juz say it
Jie er: I miss u… I need u… I love u….
RINGRING
Milk: hello… yes… yes…I noe le… I come over this minute
Selina: wat izzit?
Milk: (looks at ahdi seriously) they …
Ahdi: let’s go…xiezhi, renfu, jian hua… take care of the girls… (turns to look at jie er) I’ll be fine….
Jie er: ???
Ahdi: come on guys!
At Dragon’s
Uncle tan: may I noe why u two object
Kushiro: i…
Uncle tan: shut up!!! U have no position to speak
Shu wei: I…(takes a firm stare at uncle tan) understand that the Dragon’s can’t go without a leader… plz everyone… juz give me 20 minutes… and u’ll understand y we should not let HIM be the leader
Uncle tan: ok everyone this is a waste of…
Heron: (this guy is a silver dragon who was sent by ahdi’s grandpa to protect ahdi…his dad protected ahdi’s dad…) I think 20 minutes is worth waiting… I mean surly… unless u do have something to hide… if not why dun we wait?
Others: agree
19 minutes later
uncle tan: ok… we dun hav time already…
shuwei n heron: one more minute
at the 59th second ahdi opened the door
all: MASTER HSIAO (some in happiness some in fear some in surprise)
uncle tan: ah…di…u…I thought u are dead…? i…thought
ahdi: u thought ur killers have done a clean job with me?
Uncle tan: this is rubbish… how can u prove that Ady Hsiao isn’t dead n u are Ady Hsiao?
Ahdi: hahahahahaha…. (throws a medical report on the desk) this is the REAL medical report… n… how to prove…haha.. surely no one can blast a glass…like THIS ( the glass wall shattered that very second he said the word THIS)
Shuwei n kushiro stood beside ahdi
Ahdi: this is goin to take some time so may I ask all of u to remain patient…milk
Milk brought 2 guys over n tied uncle tan n a few other dragons up…
An old red dragon: young master Hsiao…wat is this about?
Ahdi: Uncle Gerald dun worry I have a good explaination for this
Granpa was killed we all noe is by some silver dragons n they hav been expelled from dragons’ n are given life imprisonment… we were all told the reason was that a silver dragon n granpa both fell in love with a women wan qiu hong… she made the silver dragon kill grandpa… I hated that women… uncle tan told me hu her children were n I set out to destroy them…as u all noe how ruthless I am… but ren suan bu ru tian suan… I fell in love with wan qiu hong’s daughter…one day someone kidnapped wan qiu hong’s daughter who is also my girlfren… n that person is kushiro… but my girlfren’s graciousness touched him n he now works for me… milk here has also been helping me gather information… a month ago… I was “killed” in an car accident… but actually I wasn’t… I faked death for I knew someone wanted me dead… but hu n y?...that person is… UNCLE TAN
All: (shock)
Uncle tan hated my grandpa to the core b’cuz my grandpa did not marry wan qiu hong… n the silver dragon actually had a relationship with wan qiu hong…but so wat? B’cuz uncle tan is GAY…he is in love with that silver dragon… he hated wan qiu hong n used my desire to seek revenge to hurt wan qiu hong’s child huo jian hua n xu jie er…n even tried to kill me b’cuz of grandpa n now that I’m dating wan qiu hong’s daughter all the more he wans to kill me… these can prove wat I have said to be true (throws documents onto the desk) …I’ll let the police settle the rest…
Wa this chap alone is 1322 words… selian can go be bian ju loh…
at 10:07 PM
Chapter 42 *the future? The end?*
1 month later
At ahdi’s house
Hebe: WANG RENFU… STOP!! GIMME BAC MY DOREMON
Renfu: lalala…
Hebe: (stop running squat down n bury her head into her arms)
Renfu: ( squat beside her) hebe…u…i…sorry
Hebe: BOO
Renfu: (fell n sat on the floor) u!
Milk: silly kids….( puts his arm around Selina)
Selina: milk…
Milk: hmm?
Selina: look.
Milk: ( looks at ahdi n jie er)…haha… after all that…finally… I hope this is the last time she’ll hurt him
Selina: haix… ( laid her head on milk’s shoulder) me too…
Suddenly jie er vomited onto the ground
Ahdi: JIE ER!!!
Ella: hebe , Selina…come n help ( holds jie er up and towards the room)
Ahdi: ella…
Ella: I’ll take care of her… I’ll get her changed…u guys go get car…
Xiezhi: eh remember hoh…put warm towel…wipe face… wrap a jacket… wear more hoh… arh…ya…later if a bit better muz giv drink a bit warm water…
Ella: I noe la…lao gong gong
Jian hua: get car le la…me n renfu go get our cars then come bac n fetch u guys…
Ahdi: WAIT
All (except jie er): what?!
Ahdi: all stay at home… I call private doc…faster n no need to travel
30 minutes later
ahdi: doc how’s she?
Doc: congrat Mr Hsiao…ur wife is pregnant…
Ahdi: p…pregnant?
Doc: yes…let her rest well n I’ll come down n check once a week….
Ahdi: orh…er… (shouts) milk…send doc out!
After doc left leavin onli di n jie er in e room
Jie er: i…
Ahdi: u’re pregnant…
Jie er: it’s the r…rapist’s child…I abort it k?
Ahdi: no…
Jie er: but di…this child is a …a punishment…let me abort it…plz…
Ahdi: i….ok…I accompany u down tomorrow…or u wan a few days more…
Jie er: tomorrow
(at the beach)
jian hua: eh here not bad arh?
Hebe: yarh…
Jian hua: i….
Hebe: seeing jie er together with ahdi again reminds u of xin ling
Jian hua: ya… she still with that kunda…dunno la…
Hebe: go find her
Jian hua: how I noe where she is…
Hebe: nah ( giving him a piece of paper)… that’s xinling’s present address…
Jian hua: how u…
Hebe: I ask de…from jie er…
Jian hua: hebe…i…
Hebe: jian hua… love is not like the sun…. today it sets… tomolo u’ll see it rise again… love once gone u’ll nv get it bac… go get xinling back…
(3 days later… at selina’s personal concert )
explaination: ok Selina is a pianoist and this is her 1st mini concert
jie er: y that stupid ahdi haven come…
milk: orh…he say he go buy something
renfu: everytime is liddat one la
(on the road…ahdi in his car)
ahdi POV: faster faster….
(selina’s concert)
jie er: that idiot…selina’s concert is starting anytime le…he still not here…
xiezhi: dun so anxious ma…
jian hua: y is ahdi comin anyway…I thought he say he not interested.
Jie er: I force him to come de….
Milk: shhh… concert start le…
(at starlight hospital)
milk: di…u hang in there…
renfu n hebe: u’ll be fine…
jian hua: buddy…u will be ok de…
jie er: di….di….(with tears streaming uncontrollably down her face)
… … … … … … … … …
jie er: doc…how’s he?
Doc: sorry …we did our best…
Ahdi was pushed out with a white cloth coverin his face
Jie er: di…. (ran over n ripped off the cloth n held his hand)…di…u say u protect me de… u say u’ll love me forever de…di… dun leave me… u say the angel let u come bac cuz I still love u…I love u…really… I love u…plz come bac…di…. Dun liddat …dun play le… I scared… di…. I need u…come bac…
Renfu: (putting his hand on jie er’s shoulders) jie er… it’s over… ahdi is dead…
Nurse: miss we have to send him…
Jie er: ahdi…ahdi…come bac…. I beg u god… take me instead… ahdi….ahdi….
Nurse: are u jie er?
Jie er: yes…
Nurse: b4 he died…he was shouting ur name…. n…holding onto these
The nurse handed jie er a small box…
Jie er: …di….
After ahdi was pushed away…
Milk: jie er…that’s ahdi’s last gift for u…open it
Jie er open the box to find a ring with 3 small diamond n a note…
Note says: jie er… from we first dated until now I’ve given u many rings… for our every 2 weeks’ anniversary…. I dunno if u notice… the room I booked when I first told u I like u… the room number is 521… the hospital room we always admit in was 521…every ring I gave u… inside got carve 521… cuz 521 means “wo ai ni”… I really love u… this time this ring dun have 521 carved on it le… but look at the diamonds… inside got carve 521… (jie er looks and it’s true…the 3 diamonds have 5, 2 and 1 on them)… I specially designed it for u… only u have this ring in the whole universe…. Jie er… I love the way u look into my eyes… the way u run ur fingers across my face… the way u lie on my shoulder… everything u do… the way u protected me…took care of me… kiss me… hug me… slapped me… hit me… scolded me… tormented me… everything… but wat I love most is not all these actions of urs…but wat I love most…is…u…will u marry me?
Jie er closed her eyes n took in a deep breath
Jie er: (silently) I will….
(at the church…death ceremony)
pastor: now all of ady hsiao’s relatives n friends may come forward and say their last piece to send him off…
milk: ahdi… is a very good brother… though we are not related by blood he still treats me very well… though he is a very ruthless business man…but he is especially gentle when it comes to ppl he loves (set eyes on jie er for 2 sec n look up again)… the ady I knew b4 I went overseas to take my diploma…was fierce… ruthless…violent…a pretty dark character to most ppl… but to me he was an angel… but when I return… he was gentle …. Very gentle… I could see the change in him… all for the women he loved…he gave up businesses…gave up revenge… even gave up his life twice… or shall I say trice… the 1st 2 times he was lucky… this time… he is not so lucky…but no matter wat…he will always live in my heart…
all others say le ar…I lazy to type…
jie er: I do not have much to say….
busybody reporter: but didn’t he have any last words b4 he died…
jie er: he did…
reporter: would u like to share it?
*flashback*
b4 ahdi was pushed into the operation room
ahdi: jie er…
jie er: di….
Ahdi: wo hui ai dao mou.. nian… mou ..y….yue mou ….y….yi tian….
Jie er: wo ye hui ai dao mou nian mou yue mou yi tian….
* end of flash back*
jie er: he said “wo hui ai dao mou nian mou yue mou yi tian”
after sayin this jie er walked down to ahdi’s coffin…lifted his hand and slid on a ring onto ahdi’s 4th finger….took ahdi’s hand and place the ring onto her own 4th finger….
Jie er: everyday everynight I am missing u…
Jie er felt ahdi sayin : “ jie er… will u love me till the day I die?”
Jie er: ahdi… i will love u much longer than that… much longer…
Aww…so sad… so long I nv comment le… ahdi die le… ah… wanna cry….BUT…aiyah no need me say u guys oso noe… I SURELY will let ahdi some how or rather come bac into the story de mah… so boring rite…. Aiyoh cannot help ma… I always scold fanfic writer for letting ahdi die… how can I myself let ahdi die dui bu dui….until now I’ve written 33 576 words le wah pei fu myself……if really is ahdi act out de.. wah I will cry until I si diao I tell ya..wah i love ahdi man...love him for everything he does..oso dunno y i like him...he not shuai...but his voice is super...
at 4:31 PM
Chapter 41 *Ady Hsiao Jing Hong*
Milk: ahdi… wat izzit? U look so ….shuai?
Milk said while lookin at ahdi putting on his signature leather jacket and baggy pants
Ahdi: goin pub…wanna go??
Milk: nah…ur da sao will slaughter me
Ahdi: I’m off
At pub
Ahdi was dancing and a few girls approached him n he offered them a drink…ahdi was drunk and took 2 girls out for the night
Bac home
Ahdi: sam…come gimme a kiss…jane… where’s my kiss?
Milk: ADY HSIAO JING HONG!!!
Ahdi: hu? Haiz (pushes milk aside and take the two girls into his arms)
Milk called jie er n told her bout ahdi’s situation
DINGDONG
Milk: u’re here…he’s in the room
Jie er barged into ahdi’s room and milk dragged the 2 girls out
Jie er: ady Hsiao!
Ahdi: wat la?
Jie er: fine…u wan women…I give u…
Jie er stripped off her coat revealing a black tube top and mini skirt
Ahdi looked at her, took off his jacket…and drap it over her shoulders and looked into her eyes
Ahdi: go home…
Jie er threw ahdi’s jacket aside and ran off in her tube n skirt…
20 minutes later…
ahdi: ARGH!!! MILK
milk: (rushes into the room) what what?!
Ahdi: jie er….danger (rushes out)
Ahdi ran across two streets and reached a dark alley
Ahdi: jie er!!!!
Ahdi runs over and held a naked jie er in his arms
Jie er: di… i…
Ahdi: dun talk ok? Dun talk….u’ll be fine (takes off his jacket and shirt to cover jie er)
Jie er: di…listen to me
Ahdi POV: NO!!! wait a sec did she call me di? Haiz dun care
Ahdi: no…
Jie er: u listen… ( jie er raise her slim frail arm and runs it on ahdi’s face wiping away his tears)… i… juz now…when…the first person I thought of is u…n only u… I told myself…I muz survive… b’cuz I wanna tell u…
Ahdi: jie er…whatever it is…no matter wat…u wann me to take care of kunda for the rest of his life oso can…I dun care…u juz keep quiet I send u to hospital…
Jie er: I dunn care wat kunda… di…. i… I thought I couldn’t forget kunda… I thought I love him…but over this year with u…I realize I dun wanna lose u…I can’t lose u… I thought no one could replace kunda in my heart… but I secretly yearn for ur care n concern… I need u…I like u… I love u…
ahdi gently ran his hand over jie er’s shoulder n up to her face
ahdi: after all that happened…I thought I could forget u… after hurtin me for so many times… but… tonite… I realize the flame in my heart…never died…
in starlight hospital
ahdi: doc…is she goin to be ok?
Doc: well…she lose quite a bit of blood… she got gang raped…physically she should be able to recover within a week… mentally… I dunno… be prepared…
In room 521 (again argh…I hate this room)
Ahdi: jie er…
Jie er: GO AWAY (dumps a vase at ahdi)
Ahdi: jie…er… ( hold onto her arm as she struggles and kicks ahdi in the ab…but instead of letting go…ahdi held onto her tighter)
Ahdi: I noe wat u’ve juz gone through is…but no matter wat… I’ll always be here…
Jie er: (finally stopped kicking… buried her head into ahdi’s chest)...
Ahdi POV: it hurts me to see her liddat…
As this thought occurred a tear dropped down ahdi’s face and onto jie er’s hand
Jie er: (looked up) di… dunn cry
Ahdi: hmm? Oh…nth lar….contacts wear too long le…
Jie er: (ran her hand through ahdi’s hair) I miss u
Ahdi: (speechless)
Jie er: kunda’s grip (referring to hand la) is cold… I miss the feelin of ur long fingers enveloping my hand in a warm grip… kunda’s kiss is distant n without feelin…I miss ur kiss which symbolizes all ur love for me… I miss the way u took me into ur arm…protecting me from everything…anything… but the thing I miss the most…is the way u look into my eyes… with care…concern…and love…so gentle yet so firm… ahdi… I miss u….
Ahdi: jie er… i….
I dunno how long ago… it seems like the day I was born
I knew I had to love a girl…a princess…
So strong yet so vulnerable
One day …I found her…
I loved her…I cherished her…
But…
She left me
I thought she is happy without me…
I chose to lie
To myself
I dun love her anymore…
But when she took a small step bac into my life
I could no longer lie…
I was never good at lying…
The flame it never died inside of me…
How izzit now that I can tell u I love u…
How izzit only now that it’s too late…
What can I do?
The love that we had is torn in 2
So u’ll take the smiles
From all of our years I’ll take the tears…
U gave me more than love
But never thought I cared…
My love was all for u…
Although it didn’t show
I only told u on
The day u let me go…
It’s never to late to relight the fire
It never stop burning for me
The flame it never died inside of me….
I left the place where our feelins were
As the raindrops slowly fell inside my heart
I fell in love with someone but it doesn’t matter
On this lonely nite…there’s a hero who’s alone…
Plz gimme all the loneliness
Everyday everynight I am missing u
Forever n one day
My feelins all for u
Dun forget there’s an I always there for u
Jie er: di…
Ahdi: yeah?
Jie er: i… ( look into ahdi’s eyes and tears form at the brim of her eyes)
Ahdi: jie er (holds her shoulders) dun liddat… no matter wat happened in the past…it’s past… we’ll create new memories together…write the chapters of our lives together ( and with selian too…since I’m the author)
Jie er: di… I noe u… but I …I dun …I’m not…sure…that I can…
Ahdi: it doesn’t matter if u dun love me as much as I love u…it really doesn’t matter…I’m willing to stand in the shadows of ur tears… warm any cold nights of urs… write songs for songs unwritten in ur life… smile through troubles… stand through storms… I’ll hold u in my arms… I’ll protect u…it doesn’t matter wat u can gimme bac…b’cuz… it’s enough for me to juz noe u’re unharm… b’cuz……
I love u…
aren't u guys touched
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