Thursday, April 15, 2004
ok...today...nth much...didn't see that guy much either...nvm...gor like got prob...he tok to me a bit...giv a bit hints here n there...ok juz say i'm dumb...i dun quite understand...then today lit writing haiku...can write bout anything so...i wrote one for him n one for him n lyn...his oso not bad...he took my paper n wrote the thing on the board...ms yoong was so surprise....she thought y he so big size can be so sentimental...then he told her iz i write one...haha...but he realli sentimental lor...haix...ok i heard george RECOVER le...should i be happy for him?? doesn't matter... lost all hope in myself... like to hug n hug...lookin for security...went to xiying's blog for the 1st time...ok the content ermz...i dun think i am as duh as she is...but she more cheng gong then me ba... at least she got tok to him b4...but nvm...xingying n eu noes de...my other 2 more cheng gong then her...hahaha...counted as cheng gong or not i oso dunno...nvm... qiao damn xing fu lor...jie fu realli teng her... happi for em'... i hope that b****** who tried to jio gor (n every other girl) better dun try anything funni on any one of my bao bei...if not...he'll see wat i do to him... especially dun touch my darling...she is the most fragile de...honey...hehe...kampate...i support ya (and he is NOT my dear...yet...of he'll nv be my dear in this life)
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 8:58 PM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
woah...today gu yi disturb 4th gor when he eatin...hehe xiying was with me... gu yi act close close... gonna say pai seh to 4th gor... eat oso cannot hav peace from this noisy sister... ok today got another gor le... wah not bad arh... only 3 months ++ got 2 additional gor le wor... yah...u guys noe who that person is so i dun need to say le... at first say wan me to be his jie de...but i die oso dun wan...say i dun care...then he say be mei can or not...of course can la!!! actualli sat i wanna ask him le...but so many things happen oso dunno how to say...didn't expect him to ask...but he want THAT GIRL to be his sis oso... i almost exploded lucky lyndy understands... mmm...today i think is during 2nd recess i went to 3/3 i lie on luan's lap and shouted ' hi clement' clement was like walk over n say watz wrong with her....hahaha...so funni... after sch anqi was like askin me if i wan some stuff that sing hwa ate b4...ok i like him but...plz lor... 5th gor oso liddat... throw me his shirt...like as if i wan...ok if is he wanna giv me de i dun mind...(actualli is if he giv me i'll happi until die)...but is ppl gimme without his consent de lor...i dun wan...thx qi anyway... today morning cried... dunno... gor's arms juz felt safe... cried twice haix... this year selian dunno wat happen cry n cry... weak le ba... tired... still quite worried... saw wat ppl wrote onh george's table...wat is this lor...say he si wen bai lei... he not lor... ( anyway he not si wen in first place) n he is not a bai lei... ok not say i like george very much but...i'm juz concern...got nth to do with that guy either...if anyone liddat say 3/3 de anyone i will oso angry de lor....
~perhaps lettin u go is the only way to make u stay~
~if u decided not to stay, take my heart away~
~cuz it no longer beats for me but for u~
~for forever n one more day~
[ ` guarded by my angels * ] at 7:24 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
here again...yesterday i got 2 noe hu he likes...oh well...wat 2 do? nvm...use to it le...but weird leh...last time when i like a guy n i noe hu he likes i'll hate that gal...well...not so serious...but realli i'll have this super agitated feelin...but...this time is a ...erm...dunno how to describe...something llike a pierce ba... cuz personally i oso think that gal not bad...good attitude...good results...i wun say gd figure but ok larh...quite chio oso...haix...can't bring myself to dislike her... haix...another thingy...george....ok we're not frenz...actualli we're far from frenz...he everytime see me like hen bu de i immeditely disappear... but last week n these 2 days he weird leh...ok lar...i admit i a bit bu xi guan...n a bit worried oso... (ok i noe i noe...ish cuz of him)...watever...wish he ok le ba...i stop mutilating myself le... cuz...well 4th gor mutilated himself... more serious than mine...i only scrap with mechanical pencil only puo pi n a bit blood larh...but his...omg...knife...damn it...i got damn worried...so wel...i realise ppl oso will worry me de... (at least i think they care)...so i stopped... xiying...hahaha...so fun makin fun of her...i will jia you to make her chi cu de...but frankly watz there to chi cu bout? Oi xiying i am his sister...nth else ok? stupid girl...
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